For Lola Nising

Today, one of the greatest women in my life, passed away. She is none other than, my most favorite lola, my ever beloved, Lola Nising...

Early in the morning, mom and I had a conversation on skype. we were talking about different things, including Lola. Mom said she chatted with Lola the day before. then we talked about other things. the conversation ended. later that afternoon, I heard ate kai talking on her cellphone. then she told me that ate jet called and told ate kai that Lola passed away this morning. I was really shocked. Before we had the information confirmed, my face was already covered with tears.

Dad arrived, then we told him about the news. The three of us started calling relatives in infanta, to see if the news was true. After getting the same information from different people, it was confirmed.

We didnt know what to do, until finally, we decided to chat with mom. Daddy was the one to break her the sad news. They chatted on skype, then the speaker was connected so everyone could hear mom's voice. It broke my heart when I heard her cry.. ='(

after I heard the sad news, a lot of thoughts came to my mind... how? why? what happened?

and more thoughts like, my childhood memories with my Lola, and the last time I was WITH her. :'( The last time I was with Lola was last July. I can still remember that last moment, when I hugged her goodbye.. I even told her "Lola, magpalakas ka ha!" I even got teary-eyed. I couldn't explain why, but that moment was really magical for me. That was the only time I've shown her and told her how much I LOVE HER. :'( I didnt know what entered my mind, but there was something that told me I should say goodbye to her before I leave. Maybe it's God, telling me that it's the last time I will be able to talk to her.

Plenty of family friends have messaged us on facebook. I'm thankful for all the people who has shown their concern and love for our family. Thanks to our family friends, who has given us strength and hope. Thanks everyone.


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March 20, 1922 - November 1, 2010


To my dearest Lola Nising:

Lola, we love you so much! Thank you po sa lahat-lahat... Mamimiss ko ang masarap mong suman, ang paglalaro natin ng tong-its, at ang pag-aaruga mo samin.. Thanks Lola for being my inspiration.. Salamat kasi kung hindi dahil sayo, wala si mommy. Kung wala si mommy, wala din ako dito ngayon. I love you Lola! Lagi ka naming maaalala, lahat ng pag-aalaga mo samin maaalala ko hanggang sa pagtanda ko.. Lola Nising, alam kong kasama mo na si Lord, gabayan mo sana kami palagi.. Lalo na si mommy. Bigyan mo siya ng lakas, kahit malayo siya sana masaya siya at matibay ang loob niya.. Sana Lola, masaya ka na kasama ni Lord, sigurado masaya diyan sa heaven.

We will surely miss you LOLA... You will always be remembered...

thankful :)

Hi blog! :)

I super enjoyed our vacation in LA! :) I really had a great time!
I love you sooo much mom!♥

Anyway, I decided to write another blog entry because of the incoming school year 2010-2011.. Sa tuesday, start na naman ng pasukan.. I'm happy, and excited at the same time.. new classmates, new friends, more fun moments while learning.. hehe.. and I got new roommates rin, so I'm really excited.. :)

I'm really thankful for a LOT of things.. :) with my prayers, I know everything's going to be alright. :)

+.. Thank You po, Lord ..+ :)

eto na! :)

I'm soooo excited! :)

Bukas, we'll try if makakasakay na kami sa plane papuntang LA.. *Hopefully* makasakay kami.. Dalawa naman yung flights bukas, so sana makasakay kami either of the two..

Dumaan dito sa bahay kanina my closest guy friends: eggie, angelo, pj, and jhe.. i appreciated it so much, naglaro pa sila ng baraha ;p haaaaay, sana talaga..

+...Lord, kayo na po bahala samin... +

miss na miss na miss na kita ma, mommy, nay, inay.. :)
SEE YOU SOON! :)

after one year...

Today is April 25, 2010. I can clearly remember what happened last year. It was the 25th of April 2009, and two things happened on that day: 1) I was healed somewhere in Quezon city and; 2) the commencement exercises was held in UPLB.

Weeks before that day, I was thinking of something to do to forget about the graduation. Honestly, I was bitter, because I envy my friends who were about to walk upstage and get their diplomas, while I was worrying about my upcoming exam in DLSU-d. Isang taon na pala ang nakakaraan...ang bilis ng panahon.

These past few days, I've seen a lot of pictures on facebook. Those are their graduation pictures, kaya naalala ko bigla yung mga nangyari exactly one year ago. I also saw this video and I felt a different feeling while watching this:



As I've said, I was bitter. Pero nung napanood ko tong video, parang nabuhay yung dugo ko. I suddenly reminisced about my life in uplb. Na-miss ko bigla ang pagiging iskolar ng bayan. The singers are familiar, and i know some of them too. Haaaaay, nakakamiss! Pero, honestly, masaya na ako kung nasaan man ako ngayon. Yun nga lang, hindi ko akalain na babalik at babalik sakin yung pakiramdam na I was once from UP.

I like the song, parang ang sarap maki-jamming.. kaya eto, pinost ko dito sa blog... hehe..

Haaay, napapa-reminisce na naman ako... :)

*sigh*

ang weird ng feeling.. i feel like there's something wrong, pero sana naman wala.. medyo nadi-disappoint lang ako sa ilang bagay.. tsk tsk, nag-expect na naman kasi ako.

siguro nga, nasanay kasi ako dati na pinaparamdam ng mga taong nasa paligid ko na importante ako. kaya ngayon na hindi na, hinahanap-hanap ko yung feeling na yun. ako na mismo yung lumalapit, pero parang walang epekto. ako na mismo yung gumagawa ng paraan, pero parang hindi pa rin nila napapansin... o ayaw lang talaga nilang pansinin. *sigh* :(

ewan.

basta ako, i'm really hoping na matuloy kami sa states... i can't wait to see mom! :) miss na miss ko na siya, SOBRA.. :'( i really can't wait! at gagawin ko ang lahat para matuloy kami dun!

please??????

balikan ang mga sandali..

I browsed this blog a while ago, and I've read some of my blog entries for 2007. I've read a lot which made me remember what happened during that year.

I read an entry, written on April 10, 2007. that was exactly 3 years ago. Ang bilis na panahon. tatlong taon na ang nakakalipas.... *sigh* pero nakakatuwang balikan ang mga sinulat ko dun.. I miss writing nice entries in my blog... I read the other entries as well... And this one really caught my attention. This was written on March 3, 2007:



catchy title.. napaisip tuloy ako.. how i felt, during those times... I can clearly remember.. It wasnt the exact date of her departure, but I keep on thinking about those last few moments that I was with her.

I miss my mom. And I can't wait to be with her again. *HUUUUUG!*

I MISS YOU SO MUCH MOM... We'll see each other SOON. :)

I love you mom. :)

hmmmmm....

school year 2009-2010 is finally over.. whew! :)

it was really a memorable school year for me. it wasn't easy to adjust with the new environment, but with the help of my new friends, I really enjoyed it! :)

thankful din ako for a lot of things.. Finally, third year na ko next sem.. i still have 2 years, pero alam kong saglit na lang yun.. alam kong tuloy-tuloy na to.. thank God.. :)

ngaun, im really hoping na makabisita kami kay mommy this summer... marami pang dapat ayusin at asikasuhin kaya im really hoping maging maayos ang lahat... it's been three years, and i really miss her.. sana talaga makapunta na kami sa states.. :)

and one more thing, sana makuha ko lahat ng subjects ko for next sem, especially the major subjects.. haaaaay... please Lord, sana maging maayos ang lahat...

happy naman ako ngayon.. medyo nabo-bore lang dito sa bahay.. puro internet at nood ng tv... haaay.. im hoping for a productive summer! sana makapag-enjoy naman ako ngaung bakasyon..

Sana maging ok ang lahat...

Hindi muna ako mag-iinternet mula bukas hanggang saturday.. sa Easter sunday nlang ako ulit mag-o-online...

*Hoping for the best..!*

Thank You po. =)

Kung Hei Fat Choi! =)

2010: Year of the Tiger -- Dragon
by Bill Hajdu November 20, 2009 12:13 PM EST

DRAGON: 63% (9 favorable and 3 unfavorable months)

The Tiger does not take a back seat to the Dragon when it comes to being outrageous. It could be a spectacular year for this high flying duo. On the other hand Metal is unlucky for the Dragon and, therefore, you. There are thus likely to be a few times you will crash and burn. The key is not to get too caught up in the moment. Be thoughtful and avoid unnecessary risk. You can't beat the Tiger this year, but joining forces will pay off. If you can bring yourself to exhibit a little self control, the year 2010 could be a most rewarding one indeed. Regardless of the outcomes, you will no doubt have a most exciting time. So enjoy yourself and move out smartly during the nine favorable months, and tread lightly in the other three.

Career

The Tiger ushers in a year of uncertainty and rapidly changing conditions, circumstances in which the Dragon is uniquely suited to thrive where others may stumble. Professionally, Dragons who felt their progress was stymied during the last Ox year will find abundant new prospects to explore. A new position or role could be promising, and if you are seeking a change, you are best poised to pursue opportunities early in the year or in the fall. When taking action on the career front, however, you are advised to do so in close collaboration with colleagues or superiors. Your endeavors are more likely to have the desired outcome when you gain support early instead of going it alone. Seek valuable insights from respected leaders in your field.

Relationships

It will be important to the Dragon's health to deliberately set aside time for extracurricular pursuits that will allow you to unwind and release tension. You may need to schedule exercise and personal care activities as if they were important appointments. If you wait for free time to take care of yourself, it will not happen. Mentally, you could benefit from pushing yourself or taking new risks, even in your leisurely pursuits. You may be surprised at how quickly you master a new skill. Activities that boost your confidence will improve your psychological fitness to cope with the challenges of this Tiger Year.

Health

The best thing Dragons can do for their health in a Tiger year is curb excess. Whether it is overindulgence, too much stress, or too little sleep, your tendency will be to extremes that can have a damaging impact on your health. Some vigilance here should help prevent illness in the short and long term. Even if you can't change your habits, don't discount the importance of frequent exercise and plenty of fresh fruits and vegetables as moderating factors. From a mental health standpoint, it will serve you well this year to be very open with trusted confidantes. Don't bottle up your feelings; things will seem more manageable when you talk them through.

Wealth

Good financial prospects should not prevent the Dragon from watching pennies in the Year of the Tiger. Your fortune could be increasing, but money will go out faster than it comes in without some deliberate restraint. Lucrative opportunities should present themselves, but guard against greed. Don't push your luck on risky investments. You may not feel the need for thrift this year, but an ambitious savings plan could bolster your long term prospects. Resist unnecessary luxuries that may seem particularly enticing to you, and this year of plenty could go a long way to building your fortune.

Kung Hei Fat Choi! :)
and
Happy Valentine's Day! <3