year-ender gimik. :)

I spent my time yesterday with warmbloodedz, despite the fact that i was supposed
to be with valkyries instead. i cudn't make up my mind whom i want to be with, kasi parehong ppunta ng ATC. i decided to join wb's, since i'll see valkyries @ clarisse's debut next week.

We met up @ pacita, tapos pinuntahan namin si mela sa bahay, only to find out that she's uncertain if she'd come. we stayed there, took some pics, yet ended up wth nothing. well, like tinn, i'm getting used to these kind of things. tumuloy ako with angelo and tinn sa ATC, but jec wasn't there na. it so happened that we bumped in with joy and company. : uhhh, nakakahiya talaga, i cudn't make an excuse. (sorry guys, i'll make it up to you next time). then after the conversation, food trip na muna! we were soo hungry. ordered Giant NY fries and goto. bigat sa tiyan, grabe.. after that we strolled a bit and bought some stuff. then hung-out @ angelo's place. ;) it was around 9pm and we ordered cheesy volcano pizza! *yummm*
me, angelo, tinn and jerald nalang. we played basketball after. (shooter ata toh. ;) )we played 'graduation' and kaya lang ako una gumraduate. :D haha. then, truth-or-truth, na isa lang naman at paulit-ulit ang tanong, :)

Fresh december breeze + moonlight + cool friends = one great way to end the year. thanks jerald sa paghatid. next time, bowling, ice skating, or paintball fight, ok? haha. it was a different kind of bonding, and i really enjoyed it. thanks, guys. :)

b u f f e r .

Well, my christmas turned out fine! not the best, but good enough. :)

Nawindang lang ako sa nabasa kong message from a friend.. Anyways, went out last dec.26 with angelo, jane and jerald. :) we watched Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo. dapat 3:50pm kami watched kaso me and jane arrived late, di na namin naabutan. We decided to watch the 5:50pm show. Kaso, when we get there, uber haba ng pila. -__- hindi rin kami nakahanap ng seats kaya lumabas na kami at nagpatatak, so we cud go back and watch the 8pm show
instead. We decided to eat first and we were all craving for pizza. *yumm* pabalik-balik kami sa Sbarro, Pizza Hut, Johnny be good, etc and yet we ended up @ The Pizza Company. we ordered 3 medium sized pizzas :) jec arrived there too, pero saglit lang cya. we all went together in the movie house. So-so lang ung movie, a bit funny pero i wasn't really satisfied with the story.

After that, we strolled a bit and took some pictures. Ayaw pa namin umuwi kaya nag-billiards muna @ Sid's. :) plus angelo ordered us drinks. ;p it was already late and we were uncertain how we could go home. since my house is far from theirs, i texted my sis and sabi ko sabay na kami umuwi. around 11:30 she fetched me there and i went home na. i would have loved to stay but it's my decision to go home na rin. ;)

Next time, Giligans tau. :)

[ * the 'angelo' i mentioned here is my hs friend angelo gerodias, while the ones i mentioned in my
previous post is my college friend, angelo pacheco. :) ]

pasko na..

[ it's christmas all over the world tonight ]

Tonight will be the most unusual christmas for me. my mom is out of the country, and my eldest sister will spend xmas eve doing her duty in the hospital. so, it's gonna be me, dad and ate kai nlang. *sigh*

I used to have plenty of gifts under our christmas tree. I usually open them together at 12 midnight. But this time, i don't even have one. Not that it matters, hindi lang ako sanay. hehe.

well, it's still a special night. I wish everyone a Merry Christmas! :)

back to zero na naman ako.

christmas break at last!

sunday/monday:
i had 2 christmas parties last week. first was with my dormates, last sunday yun. :) i almost forgot about my exam on monday morning (which went so-so by the way). i got sick pa nung monday, eh yun pa naman ang pinaka-hectic kong araw. -__- my body was shaking after my cs130 class. (FYI: it was around 6:30pm, the classroom was airconed and the wind outside was sooo cold on my way to my dorm.) i laid in bed and decided to take a nap before eating dinner. i woke up around 10pm and my body was so hot. i was uber hungry that's why i get out of bed even if i cant.
may handa pa naman sina tita na food(chicken & spag), pero di ko naubos. i kept my my food in the ref with that santa-shaped-food-in-a-stick.

tuesday:
i woke up the next morning feeling sooo much better, pero nilalagnat pa rin ng konti. tnx to biogesic. me, ryan and louie watched cultural night at SU sunken lobby. ang daming nagperform na dance organizations, :) it was cool. then after i followed waywanel peeps @ chowking. nagpaplano na sila for our xmas party the day after. nagpunta kami sumwhere na pedeng magpaluto ng food. after ordering, we went to Don's place. dun kasi practice nila.
Sa wakas, clear na sakin ang lahat... salamat sa ChocNut mo Romnick. ;)

wednesday: christmas party with waywanel. :)
party time!.. around 9am? oh cmon. well, we had no other options. picnic at freedom park! started out great kaya lang umambon kaya lumipat kami sa may women's dorm. hehe. i love spending time with them talaga. thanks bulacs for the gift, sobra. :) daming food na natira kaya binigay nalang namin sa mga bata na nasa park, hehe. :) after that, spent two hours @ yhani's.. then uwi na! woohoo! :)

nothing much happened on thursday so...
friday:
went back to elbi in the afternoon. dumaan ako ng dorm to get my other stuff left. unfortunately, that santa-shaped-food-in-a-stick wasn't in the fridge anymore. crap, ang sarap pa naman cguro nun.. sheeesh.
waywanel peepz went to Camae's debut @ El Pansolito resort! yeah, party time.. :) first time ako makita ng classm8s ko na naka semi-formal,haha. danced till we drop! swimming wasn't in my plan, since nagkasakit ako nung monday. pero angelo and don pulled me in the pool (pasalamat kau hindi ako nagkasakit,hehe). natapos kami around 3am. then videoke naman! kaya lang wala na kaming gana.. we were sleepy and tired. bumigay din kami and slept mga 4:30am.
woke up past 6am. fixed ourselves then may pahabol pang kain ng cake. :) umalis kami dun mga past 7am na. we were eating pandesal while walking and feeling the morning breeze. definitely one of the best mornings in 2006. :)

*sigh*

Last friday, a few minutes before 12pm, my friends and i were eating at KFC. we were supposed to go back at Hum before 12. Oblation run na kasi. XD di ko npanood ung last year ehh. nagmamadali na kami papunta dun, unfortunately di namin naabutan. -__- ang daming tao grabe.. while walking i saw a couple of naked guys who had white mask/cloth on their heads. mga 35 meters away from me. as we were getting close, tumakbo na sila paalis.. oh no! sayang.. hehe. :

i went home after that.. nag-ayos nang konti, then went to festival with Tinn.. kailangan ko kc tlga mamili.. bought some gifts and i got a blouse, :) hehe.. wala na tuloy ako money. : kulang pa rin mga panregalo ko. ei, tinn, chucks natin ha. :)

* * * * *
chatted with ken at last! :) hehe.. -->
* * * * *
"i hate myself."

went to ella's bday last night, and i failed to fly. sorry Susie, hindi na ko nkapunta.. i wanted to be there.. kaya lang ang daming crappy things na nangyari. my paperbag got lost(but found later on) kaya di kami nakaalis agad.. nung nahanap naman, sinundo na c angelo kaya wala na ko ksama papunta.. it was already 12 midnight kya di ako mkapunta mag-isa. sorry. :(

had some bonding moments with angelo(it's not ur fault by the way, don't be sorry).. sayang, the night cud've been much much better.. i had fun naman with my friends, and enjoyed ella's party, medyo quite frustrated nga lang by the end of the night. *sigh* i looked so foolish.

* * * * *
di pa rin ako nkkpag-simbang gabi. -__- as always.. never pa ata ako nakakumpleto nun. got to go back sa dorm maya-maya.. xmas party kc ng mga taga-taas. it's gonna be a pajama party, yay! hehe. :) tapos may exam ako sa Nasc4 bukas, tsk tsk. Sana makapunta cna joy and company sa LB this week. :)

* * * * *
eto na naman ang frustration ko.. i was sketching at my pad last week and came up with this: HELL YEAH.

ako, kakanta?! weh..

hei there. ;)

kahapon pa ko minamalas, pero kahapon pa rin ako sinuswerte. ;) hehe. my class will start in about 2 hours pa, so...

this weekend mukhang lilipad na naman ako. -_- it's gonna be susie and ella's birthday. buti na lang elmer will be @ ella's too, sabay na cguro kami punta @ susie's. :) wala na kong damit grabe.. haven't bought any gift for christmas. as in. parang wala kcng time eh. i haven't even bought anything for myself.

at last, tapos na philippine idol. crap, the one i least like won the competition. it ain't over till the fat lady sings, eih? cryin' out loud.

may xmas party ba ang john? warmbloodedz? hmm, i wonder..
got to go!

nothing much to say..

i'm bad at decision-making. i regret the fact that i let go the chance of joining an org. this week was the start for presentation. i was hesitant to join at first. but hesitation only gave me nothing. i was already hours late. nevertheless, i'll wait for the second wave.

we watched icebag7 last night. we have watched a lot of plays before, and for me icebag7 was not as good as icebag6. so-so lang.. plus the fact that we stood there for 3 hours at the back(a huge number of people watched by the way), made me appreciate it less. we could have watched the 9pm show but that "magaling na babaeng naka-pink" wouldn't let us get out of the auditorium(even if the show hasn't started yet). i really don't like her. hmp.

di ko naabutan auditions for street jazz. last week pa pala yun. sayang.
i watched Wyre underground dance last night.. they were uber great. now i'm confused again. :(

at this very moment, i'm still relaxed. but soon i'll be very busy for exams and more assignments.. hope i could be as productive and as happy as i can as this last month of 2006 start to unfold.

mushy, eeeww. >_<

"What happens when someone breaks your heart?"

I read this question in a romantic book a couple of days ago.

Trying to ignore the intense grief i feel,

I can't keep myself from thinking about the biggest mistake I have made.

Maybe I was blinded by mushy quotes and love stories,

but i'll tell you, there's nothing more complicated

than the simplest truth called Love.

I was surfing the web and incidentally passed by a blog of some guy(one very sensuous man, so to speak.) One of his posts was quite emotional and it caught my attention. The thing is, something hit me and made me remember the mushiest article i've ever written. It's more-than-a-year old piece of work.. geeez, i get sick when i hear the word love nowadays. (what's wrong with me?!) ewan, ang mushy lang talaga. haha. :) the italicized above and below are the first and the last paragraphs of my article... peace. ;p

Here I am starting to feel worse, sitting uncomfortably in this chair

while reminiscing the happiest days with the one I truly loved.

Before teardrops fill my tired eyes, how i wish

the wind would take away the pain and sadness that I feel.

And when I get back to sleep, I hope my heartaches

will no longer be there,

and all of these will be just a dream.

Decem..burrr. :)

[ ugh, i-approve mo na, please... ]

december na.. it's starting to get cold already.. the month started with a flash of storm. another milenyo, eh? good thing reming didn't bring much 'perwisyo' to us. i'm sooo thankful we didn't experience a week-long of brown out like before. salamat talaga.

mixed emotions na naman.. apparently i get emotional when it's rainy.. or maybe it's just the aura of the soon to come yuletide season.. or maybe because i am still 'alone'. haha, that's what i get from being too much bitter. i'm not sad though. i have found new friends in lb and finally i found my second home.

still unfinished with my cmsc123 assignment.. tomorrow night ko nlang cguro gawin un. and i'm still torn in making a big decision. i'm talking about the organizations i want to join.. yung isa gusto ko tlaga salihan.. being one of them has been my 'dream' since my freshman days.. yung isa naman, alam kong malaki ang matutulong sakin in my college life.. plus my friends are joining it too. haaaaayy.. -__-

anyway, we're going to makati tomorrow.. sana makabili ako ng 'stuff' bukas. i'm running out of clothes, wanna buy a pair of chucks, wanna buy this and that... in short, shopping galore.. hehe. :) btw, ICEBAG 7 showing on Dec. 5, 6 and 7 @ the ncas audi.. not really excited though.. but more likely i'm gonna watch it. ;p gtg.

[ just expressing my emotions.. -__- no one would understand anyway. ]

asan na ang bagyo?!

just got home from LB... wow, it's a long weekend! :) haha. quite tired though.. ang dami agad assignments. 0_o december na bukas.. grabe.. -__-

nag-badminton kami yesterday.. (sorry nani, muntik na kita matamaan..-__-) after that, me and my close friends attended YSES orientation. honestly, among all computer science organizations, yun yung pinakagusto ko. I haven't made up my mind yet if i will join the org this sem. i still have pros and cons... and they just kept on arguing in my mind.

oh, asan na yung bagyo? it's not that i want to see another version of 'milenyo'.. nakaka-doubt lang tlga kung totoo bang wala kaming pasok dahil dun..hehe..

now i'm running out of words.. i'll post nlang ulit later..

wala akong maisip. ;)

[ still waiting.. hmm.. one more hour. ]

jerald and tin came to my house kani-kanina lang.. la lang.. nagpa-deliver kami ng pizza! :) hehe.. yummmm, sarap.. :) ewan ko ba dun sa dalawa, gumagala on a sunday afternoon. -__- we're planning to go out some time to buy some stuff. mga panregalo in particular.. lapit na pala christmas! cguro watch rin ng Happy Feet after.. hehe. :)

change topic.. i think there's something wrong with a friend of mine. haven't seen her for about a month. me and my friends came up with these thoughts about her na parang hindi na tlga okay. i hope we can talk sometime.. she really needs our help.

anyway, may pasok na naman bukas.. -__- hope this week turns out fine. sheeeesh, december na sa friday. 0_o sana walang pasok! hehe, holiday daw eh. :) ayun.. i'll post again next week, orayt. log-out na muna ako. :)

watch tau Happy Feet.... -__-

"you have no right.. to ask me how i feel.." - ouch ung song noh. wahehe.. oi di ako nakaka-relate jan ha..

my eyes are getting tired.. hindi naman ako makatulog kanina when i tried to take a nap.. just watched the Lake House on dvd.. kc naman walang palabas sa cable! oh c'mon! it's saturday.. : kainis.. i forgot about ken and reymond! arghh.. kanina nga palang 3pm yun.. : sayang!! anyway pede pa next week.. hehe.. :)

i'm starting my LiveJournal account na.. i think it has more features than blogger. ang hirap nga lang ayusin kc i'm not yet familiar with it..

at long last!! may palabas na rin sa cable!! woohoo!

[ badtrip.. i am sooo damn stupid.
i behaved foolish that time.. pinag-sama-sama pa talaga..
isa.. dalawa.. tatlo..
seeeshh.. feelingera kasi. ]

smile at me! :)

sa wakas, regd na rin ako! :) kulang nga lang ako ng isang major subject.. anyway, terminal naman yun kya ayos lang. :)

*monday*
1st day of class! not really excited nor happy. i was kinda anxious that day. di ko alam kung magiging happy kc i'm with my classmates again o kailangan ko bang problemahin yung form26 ko. buti nalang Nani has a friend na nag-cancel ng stat101.. i got the slot! yey!:) 18 units na ko.. nung gabi, i had dinner with my friends. nun medyo happy na ko.. kumain kami sa lacxo(not sure with the name). pichur-pichur syempre. then sir buboy arrived there too. we had a cake pero bawal daw kainin dun sa resto kaya after kumain tumambay kami sa c-park! ang sarap ng feeling nung andun kami.. may gitara pa tpos nagkakantahan kami. medyo quiet ako nung mga oras na yun, may iniisip kc ako. hehe. :)
*wednesday*
spent most of the time with my blocmates! nag-bowling kami after our class.. sayang wala akong PE, na-cancel ko na kc yung Lawn Tennis ku. -_- anyway, ayos lang..
*thursday*
regd na ko at last! haaay, sir buboy, next time na lang ako mgko-komsay100. :c that night we watched CASayahan, celebration of CAS foundation week anniversary.. i saw my professors/instructors sing and dance! wahaha.. :) i remembered how it was a year before. actually mas masaya yung last year, bcoz of some reasons.. the program finished around 9pm. donna and i went to LB square right after.. ROckAthon na!! we ate dinner while Join the Club was singing. sayang di ko naabutan UpDharmaDown -_- well, ayos lang at least napanood ko Rocksteddy!! :) wooohoo! "mahal kita pero di mo lang alam.." :) teddy's the man.. he's so cool. :) sayang lang ang daming tao, siksikan.. after their performance slapshock na tumugtog.. bumalik na rin kami ng dorm kc nkkpagod na and we're wasted and all..
*friday*
lunch with Y-1L.. sa mer-nel's kami kumain.. sarap ng cake! :) kwentuhan blues syempre.. around 1pm nagpunta kmi sa dorm nila yhani.. gitara ulit and lots of kwentuhan.. arrggh, something's changed. sana lang mali yung nafee-feel ko.. ayoko ng 'awkwardness'.. ayoko tlga.

i badly wanna cry. ='(

ngaun lang ako nahirapan sa reg ng ganito. :c

ang hirap.. kc naman 4.0 ako sa cs21.. ayan tuloy, kung anu2 subjects ang binigay sakin.. -_- wala akong 123! cguro isu-summer ko nlang.. wala na tlgang ibang option ehh. :c gustuhin ko man kumuha nun ngaung sem, i-ri-risk ko naman yung iba pang subjects. 0_o.. ayoko na.. tingnan ko nlang ulit bukas. :c pag hindi na, kukuha nlang ako ng isa pang GE subject tska PE. *crossed-fingers* sana meron akong mahanap bukas. nagalit pa sa kin si daddy. damn. :'(

time: 2:04am.

[ music: cool with you ]

well, i spent this day with karen and donna @ festival mall.. :) just walked around, hung out at excite.. wala kcng magandang palabas na movie (except for Prestige, na napanood ko na ;p ) we got a lot of tickets and we exchanged it for cute keychains. haha. :)

i was supposed to be with wb's @ glorietta last saturday pero due to some 'stuff' i wasn't able to be with them. i was with joy, yani and jeff @ ATC instead. (tin, if you're reading this, sorry tlga.. pls don't think na pnagpalit ko kau or watever. i missed those guys lang kasi.. sorry kung last minute ako nagbackout. :c )

anyway, i already watched The Prestige! :) a very nice movie.. daming twists.. mapapaisip ka tlga. it's been too long since i last watched a movie. ngaun naman i want to watch Happy Feet. :) kaya lang next week pa showing nun. oh well...

*****

[ mood: Lately I have had the strangest feeling, with no vivid reason here to find.. ]

ang weird ko lately.. -__- i would laugh hard.. get kilig.. cry over tv shows.. get mad over foolish things.. get scared of nothing.. and at the end of the day, i'll end up typing stuff in my blog.

cguro kc there's this loneliness na na-fee-feel ko pa rin. minsan masaya naman ako pero when i get to think of a lot of things, ewan ko ba.. haaay, senxa na.. naglalabas lang ng emotions.

i better stop here. my eyes are closing slowly.

thanks, blogger.

what were you thinking?!

nakakainisssssssssssssssssssss!!!

what you've said were really MEAN.
I shouldn't take it as a big deal, i may have overreacted or what.. but respect was all everybody wants.. you should have thought before you blurted out those things.

watch your mouth, bro.

never been better! :)

i survived! :)

whew! i passed the removal exam.. ayos! i'm so blessed talaga.. thank you Lord. :) grabe kinabahan tlga ko dun.. now i'm sooooo happy! kasi hindi nasayang yung 1 sem na pinaghirapan ko yung subject na yun.. hehe..

anyway, ngaun naman bored na ko. -__- (not complaining anyway).. just wanna go out! enrolment na next week ehh.. hindi pa ko nakakapagsaya ngaung sembreak.. 0_o.. nood tv, internet, kain tulog, nood tv, internet, kain, tulog.......... and the list goes on.

well... what else... anu ba yan naubusan ako ng sasabihin.. after one week na walang post?!.. next time na nga lang ulit. :)

my world is upside down.

i am quite disappointed with cmsc21.. i still can't believe it.. akala ko makakapagsaya na ko.. hindi pa rin pala. :c

i'm just thankful my mom and dad didn't get mad.. i lost my scholarship. i disappointed my family. i disappointed myself. i was planning on gimiks i wanted to do this sembreak.. but because of that i don't think i deserve going out. I don't even deserve a chocolate bar.

i still feel weak. i won't post for sometime here until i feel ok.. maybe after the removals exam.. oh yes, i will take removals. i never i thought this would happen. i am really really sad.. oh well, i need to focus now.. i have to study na nman.. this time i will give my best na talaga... promise. :c

ang bait sakin ni Lord..

grabe.. the sem is finally over.. ang tagaaaaaaal kong hinitay matapos ang sem na to.. super hirap.. :( pano pa kaya sa mga susunod? may goal pa naman ako for next sem.. i want to join this socio-civic org pero it will depend to my academic standing.. pag may bagsak ako, i don't think i will have the urge to do what i really want. :c

there were ups and downs sa sem na to.. it came to a point na i really want to give up. sunud-sunod kc ang failed exams ko.. pasensya na ha, malaking bagay talaga kc sakin ang studies.. hindi naman ako grade conscious, just terrified at failing grades. kaya super affected talaga ko when sumthing goes wrong.

fortunately, i got exempted to three final exams.. :) i got a high score pa in my final exam in math.. hehe. ;p there was i time when i thought of dropping that subject.. grabe talaga, i'm so overwhelmed! :)

attended mela and joy's debut.. buti na lang nakalipad ako! hehe.. kaya lng late na ko dumating sa bday ni joy.. (i'm so sorry), but better late than never naman diba? sayang, parang kakarating ko lang then ntapos na. :c wanna hang out more with them pa naman.. anyway, that night was the last night i hung out with my good friend jethro. :c he left na nung Oct.31... grabe.. i miss him already.. he's one of the few guys who could really make me laugh.. luv that guy.. i'm gonna miss him so.

di na ko nkapunta sa bday ni justine.. sorry po.. i'll make it up to you.. baka dumaan ako sa house niyo bukas para ibigay yung gift ko.. medyo kinakabahan ako sa cmsc21 and cmsc22 ko. : grabe tlga, sana pasado ko... ayoko tlga umulit.. ever. -_- grabe. :c palpak pa yung project ko sa 22.. hindi ko kc natapos, proj presentation nung monday. actually pede pang humabol on friday, thank God medyo ok na yung proj ko. sana matapos ko tlga yun.. salamat tlga.. sa lahat ng friends ko.. thanks for making me strong.. thanks tlga kay Lord. :)

i'm sick of this and that. :(

yes, exempted ako sa ibang final exams.. :) plus my math and cmsc21 final exams went great.. not really sure sa mga sagot ko but i'm quite confident i'll get high scores. :)

went to alabang this day with tin and jerald.. just hung out.. actually we needed to buy something kaya kami umalis.. bday celeb. na ni mela and joy bukas... sana wag na umulan, i need to travel pa all the way from alabang to binan.. -_- hope everything will turn out fine.. haaayy..

despedida na ni jet sa sunday.. i won't be able to come.. (sori jet..), project presentation ko na kc sa monday, 12:30pm.. 0_o.. i'm not yet done with that.. tapos may exam din ako that day.. i still don't know if i cud come to justine's bday.. i already said no pero i feel guilty.. para kcng she needs me there. :(

sakit na ng ulo ko... gusto ko na matapos to...

gusto ko nang mag-sembreak.

one more week..

medyo mabigat ang araw ko bukas.. i'm wishing for some things.... haaay.

just went to the mall a while ago.. bought something for my friends.. hope everything turns out well.. di ko na tuloy nadagdagan yung proj ko sa cs22. -__- tapos ngaun pa-internet internet pa.. ang saya ng conference namin sa ym kanina.. haha.. natawa tlga ko kay badj tska kay martin. :)

anyway, change topic..
grabe.. ngaun alam ko na.. another failed relationship?! surprisingly hindi ako natuwa bout that.. anu ka ba naman.. nakaka-init ka ng ulo.. badtrip. hindi ka pa rin nagbabago.. you're still pretending.. you don't want to face reality.. you're pretending to be strong but you're weak. you know it.

ok, change the topic ulit! hehe.. wla lang yun.. na-shock lang ako.. :) hehe..
ay wala na palang susunod na topic, need to log-out na eh.. :) bye!

sembreak na... nila.

it's 2:30am.. hindi pa tapos and midlet project ko. hindi pa ko tapos mag-aral sa math. pero eto ako, patapos nang mag-internet. (haaay naku jem.)

grabe, gus2 ko na rin mag-sembreak.. one more week.. grabe tlaga oh..

i have a problem.. sana kc ibang araw nlang ung exam ko ng oct.30.. still have to attend joy and mela's bday this saturday.. still undecided kung ppunta ko bday ni justine and despedida ni jet.. syempre gusto ko makapunta pero medyo tagilid kc ako sa subject na un ehh..tapos supposedly may sem ender ang y-1L after the exam. hindi ko na alam kung san ako ppunta. badtrip.

MWF na lang pasok ko this week.. pero mabigat yung mga araw na yun.. hope i can get through and pass all my subjects.. sana talaga.

sinu bang survivor fanatic jan? haha.. wala lang.. astig kc eh :) tska philippine idol.. i'm getting more hooked every week..

uhm, wat else.. nothing more to say.. tomorrow na lang ulit.. sleep na ko.
ZZzzzzzz.. -_-

and now, i'm confused..

my two exams last night's such a mess.. wala kasing pumapasok sa isip ko nung nag-rereview.. supeeeeer hirap ng exam sa cmsc21.. code writing kc.. nahirapan din ako sa nasc2.. anu namang alam ko sa bio?!?

anyway, ok naman tong araw na to.. pasado ako sa prefi ng Stat!! :D yey! sobrang ineexpect ko na bagsak ako dun.. tapos nkakatuwa pa yung lab namin kanina.. sana exempted ako sa finals...0_o tapos exempted ako sa cmsc57! yey ulit!! hehe.. nabawasan ang paghihirap ko hehe.. pero fave ko yung subject na yun.. saya kc ng graph theory.. hehe..

miss ko na y-1L.. wow, parang magkakasama lang kami kagabi?! haha.. nakakatuwa lang.. naging close kami dahil sa project na Hangman.. daming pictures! sayang hindi ako kasama dun sa iba.. hehe.. oh well..

naramdaman niyo ba yung lindol kanina?? grabe ngaun lang tlga ko nakaramdam ng earthquake.. 0_o.. waaaah tinatamad pa kong mag-aral tska gumawa ng project.. -__- haayyy.. baket ako confused?! i dont know as well.. the signs are flying all over me.. hindi ko lam kung nag-fi-feeling lng ako o tama yung hinala ko.. dati ok lang pero ngaun ayoko na muna.

bangag na ko.

tama na ang pagpapaka-bitter. :)

nami-miss ko yung feeling.. you know what i mean? haaayy..
masyado na kong bitter.
enough na. :)

[hmmm.. bkit kaya?] :)

here they come...

grabe, tadtad na ko ng exams this week.. -_-

just took stat1 prefi exam last night.. not happy about that.. 'hello finals' was all i can think about.. di kc ako nkpag-aral masyado dun eh.. maliit ung chance na mapasa ko ung exam na yun.. anyway, i have four long exams this coming week, 1 lab exam and 1 group quiz.. kamusta naman dba.. ung ibang skul sem break na nila pero nagkaklase pa rin kami sa elbi. -_- haayy.. may 2 programming projects pa kong kailangan gawin.. kulang kc talaga sa oras.. sana magawa ko lahat ng dapat kong gawin..

Help.

yey! :)

i had a wonderful party last Oct.7 :)

it's a long story to tell so hindi na ko magsha-share bout what happened..
just wanna thank the ff:

* family ko - for everything.. lahat lahat.. for giving me a beautiful life.
* valkyries/elbi girls - salamat po.. :) di ko akalain makakapunta kau.. tnx for making me happy.
* mon and badj - super thank u.. :) the party
cud've been dull kung wala kau.
* warm bloodedz - kahit konti lang kau i'm happy nkapunta kau sa bahay. :) tnx so much.. tin, jet, gelo, jec. :)
* happy bonding - missed you so much! sorry kung di ko kau masyado na-entertain ha, dami kcng bisita.. gala naman tau some other time.. mwah. :)
* reg and juls - na-touch ako sa inyong dalawa.. i'm so happy we're still friends.. kwentuhan tau ulit minsan. :)
* klariz and alvin - thank u! kahit di ko kayo msyado nasabihan, tnx dahil pmunta kau. :)
* tita carol and company - (di nila to mababasa) but super thank u for the food preparations, flowers tska ung pag-aayos ng bahay.
* kuya roi and company - tnx for the video.. senxa na naabala pa namin kau. :)
* friends ni ate kai - tnx sa pagpunta.. tska sa pagkuha ng pix.. :)
* ninongs/ninangs/titas and titos - salamat po sa pagpunta
* kina tita babes and cuz kaye and carlo - salamat! snxa na kung di ko na kau nakausap.. salamat kahit malayo nagpunta kau.. and sa videocam, tnx. :)
* kay gerby - tnx for the songs! galing mo..
* Sweet P - salamat sa pagtugtog.. sa effort.. na-appreciate ko promise.. :) (may nkalimutan pa b ko?) to everyone, thank you very very much! :) napasaya niyo ko.. yun lang, thank you! :) mwah!

anxiety.

grabe, one week kaming walang pasok?!
lots have been damaged by that storm.. damn you, milenyo.

yesterday, i went to my best bud's house.. pmunta ko dun late na rin around 3:30pm na.. Wala lang.. tagal ko na ring di nkapunta sa house nila ehh.. wala pa rin silang pasok kaya ayun tambay muna.. hehe.

we watched High School Musical.. :) nice movie.. teeny bopper but nice.. i've always been a musical fan.. :) then after, more kwentuhan.. then it was the first time i played O2 jam.. haha, hindi ako marunong.. we also talked about how each other's life has been.. i really needed sum1 to talk things to..

Hanging out with a true friend is the best thing to do when everything else in the world seems to be wrong. For some time nakalimutan ko tlaga mga problema ko.

Thanks Tin.. na-miss ko yun. :)

that was the worst week... ever.

last week was full of crap.

i really prayed for some things i wished not to happen, but i guess it wasn't enough.

wednesday night:
ang lakas ng ulan. kinabahan na ko agad sa mga pwedeng mangyari. a week ago pa lang wish ko nang wag mag-brown-out at umulan sa party ko.. wala si room mate. i cried myself to sleep.

thursday:
nagising ako ng madaling araw dahil bukas ung ilaw sa kwarto. pagtingin ko sa labas, umuulan pa rin. pinatay ko ung ilaw tapos sabi ko sana pag-gising ko ulit, wala nang ulan.
pagka-gising ko, mas lumakas pa ung ulan. malakas rin ang hangin. brown out. noon pa lang alam ko na ang mga susunod na eksena. lumabas ako ng kwarto, andun din ung ibang dormates ko. may karamay ako. walang pagkain. bumalik ako sa kwarto at sinubukang matulog ulit. lumakas na naman ung ulan, medyo pumapasok na ung tubig sa bintana ng kwarto. binuksan ng dormates ko ung pinto sa kwarto namin para tingnan kung ok lang ako. binigyan nila ko ng basahan. tinulungan nila kong punasan yung tubig sa kwarto. pagkalipas ng ilang oras, humina ung ulan. bumalik ako sa kama at sinubukang matulog muli. sana panaginip lang ang lahat.

maya-maya, kinatok ako ni donna at kay sa kwarto. niyaya nila kong umuwi. wala nang bagyo nun. pumayag ako dahil iniisip ko ung bahay namin... at yung party ko. drained na ung cellphone ko. umalis na kami. ang hirap humanap ng masasakyan.. hindi ko na ikkwento lahat dahil ayoko nang maalala ung ibang nangyari. basta na-stranded kami sa pansol, inabot ng gabi. salamat kina kuya Howie, sinundo nila kami dun. pero bumalik kami sa dorm. Nabigo kami sa pag-uwi. sana panaginip lang ang lahat.

friday morning:
gumising ako na nsa kwarto ni kay, kasama siya, si donna at si yhen. sama-sama na kaming natulog nung gabi. kailangan na naming makauwi. nag-bus at jeep na kami pauwi. bandang tanghali nasa bahay na ako. brown out.
i was deeply hurt. hindi dahil brownout. hindi dahil walang tao sa bahay. dahil yun sa mga nakita ko sa bahay na nagpaalala sa kin ng isang bagay na hindi ko alam kung mangyayari pa. ang party ko. sana panaginip lang ang lahat.

saturday:
brownout pa rin. pero tanggap ko na ang lahat. ganun ata talaga. umuwi si ate jet. kumpleto kami sa bahay, wala lang si mama. ok na ko nun. hindi na muna ko nag-isip-isip. malulungkot lang ako. sana panaginip lang ang lahat.

sunday:
a very unproductive day. simula nung nag-brown-out wala pa kong nagagawang matino. haaay. hindi ako makatulog nung gabi. tapos, biglang nagka-kuryente! praise God tlga.. ang saya-saya ko nun. totoo na to, hindi to panaginip.

tapos kanina, galing akong LB.. inalam ko kung totoo ung balitang walang pasok. tapos kumuha na rin ako ng gamit pang-review. iba ang mukha ng Los Banos nung nagpunta ako kanina. wala halos tao sa dorm. nawala na ung mga punong nagbibigay ganda sa kalsada. wala na ung mga ngiti sa mga taong nakakasalubong ko araw-araw. iba ang timpla. iba talaga.

anu mang nangyari, thankful pa rin ako.. promise.. kasi ok na ko ngaun ehh.. sana lang ok na tlaga ang lahat.. sana walang mangyaring masama. sana rin pagbalik ko sa susunod na linggo sa Los Banos, makita ko ulit at maramdaman ung saya dati. ung lugar na parang tahanan ko na rin.

i know God has His reasons... and i know it's for the better.

baffled.

nahihirapan na ako.. ang gulo kasi.. ang daming iniisip.. ang daming gagawin pero hindi naman ako makapagsimula.

para akong ewan. minsan di ko na rin maintindihan mga nangyayari. nagsisiksikan sa utak ko mga bagay na kailangan kong tapusin..

i'm soooo worried for this saturday.. sana walang mangyaring di kanais-nais.. please... i just want to enjoy that day.. un lang naman.

3 weeks na lang sembreak na.. i want to end this sem giving my best shot. di pa kc ako nkakabawi sa iba kong subjects.. i really need to catch up.. haaaaaayy.

a haaaaaaaaaappy day indeed. :)

i just had my 18th birthday yesterday. :) i celebrated it with my closest UP friends.. syempre nasa elbi kc ako. :p

first thing's first.. syempre nagsimba muna ko sa chapel around 6am.. natapos yun before 7am, tapos natulog ako ulit since my first class starts at 9..

pagpasok ko daming bumati sa kin.. :) syempre lecture class un ehh.. hehehe..

lunch time.. ksama ko sina yeL, ryan and arrianne.. sabi ko kc treat ko sila ng lunch. i suggested na sa greenwhich kami kumain.. treat ko ung sari-sari square pizza ( i was really craving for pizza. :) ).. then they were acting really funny. alam ko nang may 'something' eh.. but i didn't have a clue what it was. tapos nung dumating na sa table namin ung pizza, bigla nilang pinakita sa kin ung box ng cake. nagulat ako, i wasn't expecting anything from them kc. tapos yun, i blew the candle. tapos kumain na kami... saya ng kwentuhan.. puro 'projectile..' haha.. loko-loko kasi yung mga yun eh.. :) hehe.. they definitely made my day. :)

then class ulit ng 4pm.. saglit lang ang discussion sa cmsc22.. tapos usap-usap bawat lab section.. kakatuwa ung classmates ko, nkalimutan ko n nga eh pero lam ko natatawa ako sa kanila.. hehehe.. go, waywanel.. ang yahoo groups asan na? :)

tapos treat ko si may, karen and dianne ng ice cream sa mini stop.. after that, may class ako ng nasc2.. buti nlang maaga kami pinalabas..

then dinner, treat ko si donna and aileen @ Crib. a very nice place to wind up. :) relaxing.. hehe.. gusto sana namin mag-videoke kaya lang nahiya kami sa ibang tao na nandun.. then we decided to watch a dvd instead, kaso pagtingin namin occupied na ung isa pang tv na may dvd player. ang vacant nlang eh ung computers na may wi-fi.. no choice kaya yun nlang.. tapos we ordered pizza and pasta.. and bottomless iced tea na hindi ko gusto ung lasa.. hehehe.. :) yun, saya rin ng kwentuhan, medyo hyper ako nung mga oras na yun ehh.. tapos nag-picture-picture nlang kami sa Crib. :) haha, adik ako eh. :p we played chess rin, tapos humiga-higa sa mga bean bag chairs.. hehe.. sarap tumambay dun. :) to aileen and donna: thank you so much, ang saya ng gabi ko.. kahit na tatlo nlang tayo ngaun, at last year anim tayong nag-celebrate ng bday ko, u still managed to make my night worth remembering. :)

after that, uwi na rin sa dorm.. :) hehe... salamat sa aking mga dormmates esp. kay ate bea na roommate ko. :) i spent the last 30 minutes of my bday laughing with kay, shyla ang ate mari cris.. tapos pumasok na ko sa kwarto.

the finale? i cried myself to sleep. tears of joy yun definitely + some realizations na rin. i just realized na hindi na ko bata. i have to face the real life. i got to think of the past 18 years as well.. i haven't accomplished that much yet, at marami pa kong gustong gawin at maabot sa buhay. a cliche but i deeply mean it.

Thanks to my family.. i love them so much.. :)
thanks to my friends na hindi nakalimot bumati.. Sa elbi friends ko mentioned above, super duper thank you.. :) sa mga nakalimot naman, salamat pa rin.. hehehe.. at syempre sa kahit sa mga hindi ko gaano kilalang tao who simply smiled at me, thanks. it brightened up my day. :)

love you all! mwah! :)

and now we're down to six days...

weh.. buti nlang tapos na exams ko.. still busy though.. -__-
nasa dorm pa ko ngaun. bukas pa ko uwi sa bahay.. un nlang muna ngaun.. speechless ako.

why people are single. haha.

[ got this from friendster bulletin nga pala.. c/o a friend. ]
BAKIT "SINGLE" ANG STATUS KO AT STATUS MO
Kaya heto ako at sasabihin ko sa inyo ang ilang mga rason kung bakit. Kesa kinukulit nyo ako
kung bakit single ako at kung bakit d nyo rin maubos isipin bakit single pa kayo!

10. Perfectionist/Mapili
Yes, isang taong perpeksiyonista.Yung tipong dapat ganito ang magiging kapartner ko. Pag may nakilala, nakita langna pangit ang kuko o may dumi lang, turn-off na agad. O kaya ang daming ayaw. Ayaw samabait boring daw, gusto bad boy/ pilya pero kapag pinaiyak ka tatanungin ka bakit ang sama mo bakit mo nagawa yun! Adik ka ba?! Ayaw sa cute, ayaw din naman sa panget. meron dyan gusto ka ayaw mo naman.. ung gusto mo halos magtambling ka pero deadma parin yang stunts mO sa kanya! pasaway ka rin e! Ano ba talaga kuya?

9. Busy Busyhan
Opo, eto yung ang mundo e gumagalaw lang sa libro at ballpen kung estudyante ka o kaya naman sa computer at files kung office staff ka. Yung tipong aalis ng bahay ng alas 6 o alas 7 ng umaga at uuwi ng bahay ng 6 hanggang alas 8 ng gabi [baligtad naman para sa mga nag tratrabaho sa call center]. Sabay tulog na. Kapag sabado masaya na sila sa tv, sa pagkain na niluluto ni mama at salinggo naman sisimba at maghahanda na ng kelangan para sa lunes hanggang byernes. Pssssst¦ ka muna and pause for awhile¦

8. Friendship Theory
Ano naman ito? Eto yung ang buhay ay kay bestfriend o kaya kay special friend na hindi masasabi sabi sa friendship nya sa loob ng kanilang mahabang panahon na pagsasama dahil baka daw maapektuhan ang pakikipagkaibigan at iwasan sya. Yung tipong pag may kasama si friendship na iba, nagseselos na wala naman sa lugar, pero syempre wag pahalata, kunyari happy sya for friendship. ABA! Oi lakasan mo ang loob at baka mamaya forever mong pagsisihan yan kaw rin.

7. Born-to-be-one (Authestic)
Eto yung nasa palad na ang pagiging single daw¦ Walang reasons¦ Basta lang nabuhay sya sa mundo na mag-isa at feeling nya mamatay sya sa mundo ng mag-isa. Kesyo magmamadre o magpapari na lang. Asa kang tatanggapin ka pa noh!

6. Happy-go-lucky
Eto yung taong walang alam kundi kasiyahan at trippings. Kahit sino nalang basta no strings
attached. For fun lang daw... Walang halong seryosohan. ABA hoy! yang init ng katawan mo eikiskis mo nalang sa pader. Makakahanap ka rin ng katapat mo!!!

5. Wrong Place
May nakaranas na ba nito? Yung pakiramdam mo nasa ibang mundo ka. Yung ang nakakaharap mo e yung mga hindi mo gusto, yung mga hindi mo hinahanap. Alam mo yun? Halimbawa nasa ibang bansa ka, pero ang hinahanap mo e yung amoy ng nasa sariling bayan mo. O kaya naman e nasa sarili mong bayan ka, nasa normal na lipunan, pero ikaw ang abnormal at hindi mo kayang sabihin na abnormal din ang hanap mo kung ayaw mong ibitin ka nila ng patiwarik.

4. Wrong Time
Eto yung mga tao na sinasabi na, hindi pa ako ready e bata pa kasi ako o kaya naman hindi pa ako handa sa panahong ito, wala pa ako kayang ipagmalaki. Yes meron pong ganyan. Yung feeling nila may tamang panahon para sa love. Awwwwwww. Aba kelan yun? Pag uugod ugod ka na at yung time mo e bitin na? O baka naman pag pang out of time ka na? Oist, sugod lang ng sugod¦

3. Si parents kasi¦
Yes, factor din ang komyunidad na ginagalawan mo. Una, ayaw pa ni mader o pader na magkaron ka kahit 22 anyos ka na at kelangan umabot ka muna raw ng 40 bago magkaroon ng gf/bf. O kaya naman ikaw mismo! Takot sa sasabihin ni parents at ni kapitbahay na tsismosa sa magiging kasama mo. Aba ikaw na nga ba ang sabihan na.. Alam mo hindi kayo bagay. langit at lupa kayo. Awwwww. Payo ko sayo, Pakialam nila diba?Palibhasa inggit!

2. Traumatic Experience
Eto kalimitan ang reason ng marami. Ayaw ko na!!! takot na ako mangyari pa ang nangyari dati! O diba ang drama ng layp? Yes, tama ka. Eto yung dahil sa past relationship mo, e until na ayaw mo ng magkaroon at sinumpa mo na ata ang magmahal. Dahil sa pinagpalit ka sa mas pangit, o kaya naman iniwan ka ng walang word na bye-bye, o dahil binugbog ka!, ano pa ba? Madami yan¦ wag nanating isa isahin at baka tumulo si tears¦heheh Gayunpaman, eto lang masasabi ko mga hija at hijo. Ibat iba ang lasa ng pag-ibig. May mapait, may mapakla, may matamis at may maasim. Abamapalad ka at natikman mo ang ibat ibang lasa nito. Kaya ikaw, Do not be afraid to fall in loveagain¦ malay mo sweetiness na ang malasahin mo next time. E di panalo ka sa lotto. Yan angnagpapalakas sayo¦ Yang ang bumubuhay sayo, ang pag-ibig. tsk! drama!

1. EX to the nth power
Oi aminin!!! LOVE parin si Ex kahit 1 “ 2 yrs na ang nakakalipas¦ May ganito naman. Yung tipong ilang taon ang nakakalipas, hindi parin makalimutan si ex. Yung pinagsamahan, yung tawanan, yung iyakan, at lahat ng nangyari sa inyo nung kayo pa. Malungkot man at sa kung anumang kadahilanan, maganda man o masama ito, kelangan nyong magpaalam sa isa't isa. YES, after a year sasabihin natin, im over him/her na, pero pag-usapan natin ang love at ang nangyari sa ating relationshipfrom the past, TADANNNNNNNNNNNNN, eto na, sya agad ang naalala mo. At habang nagkukwento ka, ouch may kirot, o kaya may ngiti at may bumabagabag sa ating kalooban¦. Ano kaya yun? AMININ mo na kasi¦. MAHAL mo pa si EX¦. Isa lang ang masasabi ko, well mahirap sya kalimutan alam ko yan¦ pero open your heart and makipagdate ka, lumabas ka, at try to entertain someone. Wag mo ikumpara si ex sa iba. At give urself KITKAT, take a break.. hmmmm...

habang nasa mood mag-blog. :)

weee.. kakauwi ko lang galing sa bday celeb ni Tin patron. :) hehe, i had fun! it was nice meeting my friends again. daming kwento.. tapos kasali pa ko sa 18 wishes.. medyo kinabahan ako kc hindi ako prepared sa sasabihin ko.. hehe. ayun.. nabusog naman ako sa food. cute ung souvenir.. Tin, if ever you read this, i really enjoyed the night. :) thanks. i hope you did too.

change topic. grabe, kailangan ko na ng powers ng isang superhero. may conflict kc sa oct.28 na bday celeb. i can't miss either! hindi pede. grabe.. ang iniisip ko ppuntahan ko ung isa tapos hahabol ako dun sa isa.. kailangan kong lumipad. superman, i seriously need your help. (0_o).

currently listening to 'kami nAPO muna' album.. nice songs pero hindi msyado mganda pagkaka-revive nung iba..

panu ko kaya mabubuo si Mr. Potato Head? wala akong mahanap na kamay, paa tska mata sa google eh.. gagawa ako ng drawing?

sa wakas, naka-best time rin sa expert ng minesweeper. nyahaha..

UAAP cheering competition na bukas.. go UP fighting maroons. :)

i'm not crazy i'm just a little unwell..

yeah, i'm a little unwell.

cguro kasi this past few days were really frustrating.. feeling ko kasi everything's falling apart. actually medyo ok na ko ngaun pero nung monday hindi tlga.. i even cried that night. reasons? simple things about myself... mga npag-muni-munihan ko sa buhay.. haaay, here we go again.

anyway, enough of that.

tomorrow will be tin's bday celebration.. sana maraming pmunta. miss ko na sina clarisse, karen encar, and company.. but it's monmon who i miss the most! i know i'll see her soon.. anyway, exams na naman this week.. math27 and cmsc57.. kaka-exam ko lang kgabi ng cmsc21 and nasc2. hope the results turn out good. i know He will be there to guide me.

baket kaya ako malungkot? magulo ang utak.. loner.. masyadong seryoso.. ang cold ko kasi.. bitter.

ambiguity.

I thought you were like everything else...

You proved me wrong the moment you flashed that sweet smile. I was trying to look into your eyes but the fact that you're staring at me made fell off my seat. I wish you didn't notice i was being stupid when you were inches away from me. I felt the warmth again after a long time of being cold. And last night it kept me awake..for my eyes wouldn't seem to close and my consciousness wouldn't let me sleep. I don't know if it's you or just because i was drinking black coffee.

Leche kang kape ka. :)

para sa na-evict sa bahay ni chime.

i don't know what to say. i'm still bewildered with how strange everything has happened.

it's hard to give trust again when it's been broken. the lies and mistakes done definitely broke our hearts. to think that the person who puts a smile on our face is the same person who put tears in our eyes.

i feel sad. unfair ka kasi.

kahit ganun.. i have forgiven you even before you said sorry.

ber-month.. :)

wow september na.. ang bilis.

lapit na birthday ko! oh no.. hindi ako prepared. haaay, let's just see what happens.. but i hope it would really be a 'happy' one. :)

musta naman.. medyo sablay ang acads ko.. which greatly frustrates me. i so so so wish, hope and pray i'll get over these hardships. nag-eexert nman ako ng effort. promise. sana talaga everything will turn out good. kahit na mahirap, kakayanin ko to. hindi pedeng hindi. just don't lose hope.

haaay.. busy mode na nman.. i need a good rest and peace of mind to do things well.
till here, i'm quite tired and sleepy na rin. gdnyt. :)

paparapapap..

just got home from Maine's bday party.. whew, medyo nkkpagod biyahe from taft manila.. unfortunately konti lang kami ntuloy pmunta dun. halos La Salle friends and ka-CMLI ni maine yung bisita.. badj didn't make it either, kaya no choice commute lang kami. pero okay lang. pagdating dun sa mcdo kainan na.. hehe.. medyo nagutom kami kaya ayun. tapos may games after. it was fun watching grown ups play those kinds of game. :) nakakatawa kaya lang hindi ako nkasali. (hehe, kj?). hindi naman, medyo nahiya lang ako nung umpisa tapos nung gusto ko na sumali, wala na pala. hehe, oh well.. anyway, dumating si Ronald McDonald! sayang nga wala sina grimace. haha. hindi pa kami nakapag-pa-picture.. wala kcng may dalang camera samin.. but it's ok. :)

after nun umuwi na kami.. medyo gabi na kasi tska delikado kc commute lang.. tapos ayun dun kami sa pnakalikod ng bus umupo.. tapos pgdating ng pacita, papunta sa terminal ng tricycle, biglang may lumapit sa king bata na ngtitinda ng sampaguita.. ang kulit nga eh, parang kahit anong sabihin ko talagang hindi niya ko lalayuan hangga't hindi ko sya binibigyan ng pera. medyo scary nga eh, buti kasama ko nun si maykel.. hehe.. ayun parang nainis na tlga ko.. tapos umalis na ung bata na parang galit pa ata sakin.. scary tlga.. ayun tpos sabi ni mayk isulat ko daw to sa blog ko.. hehehe. :)

ayun, i arrived home safe naman. buti nga hindi ako busy this weekend.. sa mga ssunod na week medyo hectic na nman.. haaay, ayun.. geh till here! :)

:(

Mahirap maging scholar. promise.

long weekend.

yey! walang pasok bukas.. first time ko ata ma-feel ang holiday ngaung sem.. kc nman may bagyo na't lahat may pasok pa rin sa elbi.. haay, anyways..

attended karol's bday last night. :) as usual get together with my hs friends nnman. grabe, super late na kmi nkarating dun. as in we're 2hours late. kasi sabay-sabay kaming pmunta and some of us wala pang 'sense of time'. hehe, joke. :) motto of the day:

Time is gold... that's why i'm poor.

haha.. kidding. anyway, late na rin kaming nakapag-dinner. tapos di kami nakapag-videoke. (aww, too bad.) tska di rin kami nkapagsayawan. it was fun though. :) picture picture nlang and kwentuhan. we were the last ones to leave din (exclusing karol's college friends, overnight kc sila.) past 1am na ata kami nkaalis. badj was there to drive us home naman. (thanks dude.) :) then i arrived home around 2:30am na.

woke up today at 1pm. (takaw tulog ka talaga, jem.) then computer agad, kc we have to finish our programming assignment. long weekend, pero parang di pa rin enough.. lots of things to do pa but i'm still thankful coz i'm still doin fine. :)

ahh, ok.

Girl: I'm always here for you.
Boy: I know.
Girl: What's wrong?
Boy: I like her so much.
Girl: Talk to her.
Boy: I don't know. She won't ever like me.
Girl: Don't say that. You're amazing.
Boy: I just want her to know how I feel.
Girl: Then tell her.
Boy: She won't like me.
Girl: How do you know that?
Boy: I can just tell.
Girl: Well just tell her.
Boy: What should I say?
Girl: Tell her how much you like her.
Boy: I tell her that daily.
Girl: what do you mean?
Boy: I'm always with her. I love her.
Girl: I know how you feel. I have the sameproblem. But he'll never like me.
Boy: Wait. Who do you like?
Girl: Oh some boy.
Boy: Oh... she won't like me either.
Girl: She does.
Boy: How do you know..
Girl: Because, who wouldn't like you?
Boy: You.
Girl: You're wrong, I love you.
Boy: I love you too.
Girl: So are you going to talk to her?
Boy: I just did.

struggling...

The more i feel the pain, the more i become numb.

school works.. tv shows.. birthdays..

** iskwela **

watched icebag last wednesday.. it's nice.. i liked it. 3 and 1/2 hrs ata kahaba ung play. it has been months since i last watched a play. super na-enjoy ko! hehe.. funny kc ung lines and scenes.. na-miss ko rin kc manood ng ganun. ganda pa ng pwesto namin sa dl umali audi.. supposedly 100 php ung ticket pero i bought it from a friend for 50 php lang. super sulit tlga.. hehehe..

then the day after (thursday), meeting ng UP Young Augustinian's Society. org ng mga taga-csa binan na taga-UPLB rin. naks.. hehe.. saw my schoolmates, daming upperclassmen.. batch nmin ang pinaka-konti(batch 05).. election of officers tska dinner na rin sa 19th hole. ayun.

*whew!* exhausting ang midterm exam ng stat.. (0_o).. pero kaya naman, i think nasagutan ko ng maayos ung mga questions.. :) hehe.. though haggard ang itsura ko after the exam, parang napiga talaga kc ung utak ko.. sakit pa ng likod ko at halos subsob na ung mukha ko sa test paper.. umuwi na ko ng bahay agad right after.. super pagod and i just want to take a rest. mwehehe, so much for that.

meron nga palang humanities / arts / i-cant-remember-what event next week.. (nakalimutan ko tlga ;p) but i find it interesting kc may exhibit ang Painters', may program sa dl umali at Ncas auditorium.. kakanta ang Himig uplb, sasayaw ang filipiniana, and a whole lot more activities with relation to the arts... for FREE! gusto ko manood.. sana wala ko msyado gagawin.. :)


** Pinoy dream academy **

what's with pinoy dream academy?! i was like "okay, here goes another star search or whatsoever, blah, blah, blah..". i just watched the pilot episode and i didn't like it even before the start of the show. they kept on saying the phrase "drama sa likod ng pangarap" which really annoyed me.. there were some familiar faces pa. just like this guy who joined a contest on the other station months ago. then a girl i recognized who was from star in a million.. and then there's this another girl who used to be my sister's college classmate. idagdag mo pa ang mukha ni sam milby. typical. just typical.

on the bright side naman, each contestant was given a chance to sing. in fairness, compositions nila ang kinanta nila.. at in fairness, some of the songs are nice, and some vocals are really good. may potential din naman ang contestants nila. i just hope the succeeding episodes will be new for the audience, nakakasawa na kc minsan when it's just like the usual. let's see.

sorry ha, bias kc ako sa american/philippine idol eh. hehe. :)


** birthdays **

it's august! Happy birthday to:

Monmon, Tasha, Krei anne, Karol, Emman, Jane, Jeffri-Anne, cousin Kaye, Germz, Tin. P., and to my Mom. :)

collide. :)

Collide
Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And i'm tangled up in you

YeahI'm open, you're closed
Where i follow, you'll go
I worry i won't see your face
Light up again

*Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and i collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found i'm scared to know i'm always on your mind

*Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and i collide

Don't stop hereI lost my place
I'm close behind

*Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and i collide

You finally find
You and i collide

ups and downs.

this week has been a roller coaster ride for me. masaya sana, pero nakaka-frustrate.

Acad-wise, kamusta nman ang exam ko sa math?! damn.. nakakalito kc.. and i knew that i wasn't prepared when i entered the room.. parang kahit anong effort ang gawin ko, hindi pa rin enough para mkakuha ng mataas na grade.. nadulas pa ko sa math building.. kamusta naman un diba?! hehe.. tinawanan ko na lang sarili ko. tapos exam nman sa cmsc57. mas ok na un.. hope i get a high grade.. hindi ko ata pinangarap bumagsak. *sigh*

thank God for my classmates and friends.. kahit stressed out, they manage to make me smile pa rin.

to warm bloodedz.. may gala pa naman bukas but i think hindi ako makakasama. kulang pa ang time na nandito ko sa bahay para gawin ang mga dapat gawin. lam ko minsan na lang un but important tlga mga gagawin ko. miss you guys.

just got home this morning (saturday). LOTS of things to do pa.. mas hectic na next week.. ICEBAG na. bday na ni Mon. bday na ni Tasha. meeting ng UP YAS. midterm exam ng Stat1. i really really do hope next week will turn out well. sana tlaga... SANA.

it's raining...

it's rainy outside.. *sigh*

these past few days, i was having a hard time sleeping at night! though i'm pagod and everything, late na ko nkkatulog.. argghh..

i wanna watch a movie!! damn.. three consecutive weeks pa kong may exam. weekends are my rest days and nkakatamad pag and2 sa bahay. di tuloy ako makagala.. anyway, sana makasama ako sa gimik ng wb's next weekend.. kung tuloy man.

kainis, di pa ko mkapag-compile sa java. nag-download na ko but i'm not sure if that's the right software na pnapadownload samin. i don't know what to do! may assignment pa nman kami bout that.. pahirapan na nman to.

exam na sa math27.. sana madali lang... (-_-) haaayy.. then cmsc57, sana rin madali.. hehe..

may org na sa uplb ang mga tga-csa! woohoo! kaso di pa recognized.. nyeknyek.. but we had a mtg last wednesday.. i met some upperclassmen.. most of them are familiar.. i think mapapalitan pa yung name and logo...

so much for that.. i got to go.. need to do my homework pa.. hehe.. *bye!*

black.

Joyce, your true color is Black!

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.


******

hUwaAaAat?!?! yan ay ayon sa isang personality test sa net.. quite true.. but i think my character isn't that strong.. (-_-)

idiosyncrasy.

arrgghh..

what an unproductive day.

damn.

i have two exams this week and yet i haven't studied anything at all. *sigh*. then i have to attend a bday party in about 2 hours. i'm not prepared. i don't know why but my mood isn't great.

one month after na pla since start of classes. i guess, hindi ako masyado nkkpag-socialize. i always stay in my room. get A LOT of sleep. watch tv alone.. haaayy.. miss ko nang gumala! last time i went out and watched a movie was like yearsss ago pa. wana have some fun! i feel damn BORED. (0_o) haaaay..

i miss 'them' badly.

Enough said.

measure your life in LOVE. =)

Out of boredom, I decided to watch our dvd of RENT na pakalat-kalat lang sa living room. I didn't know what to expect. But I was surprised on how 2 hours and 10 minutes of my time made me wonder how you "measure, measure a year."

Rent is based from Jonathan Larson's award-winning musical. It was directed by Chris Columbus. Syempre puro kantahan, even the simplest conversation, ginawan pa ng kanta. I got bored at the first part of the film. Buti na lang mganda ang cinematography. Eventually, i got intrigued by the lives of 8 individuals struggling against poverty and illness. Some of the songs were really great. Especially the soundtrack: Seasons of Love. I've heard that song years ago but it's only when i watched Rent that i felt the true spirit of the song. About the story.. well, may pagkamalalim. I don't know if other people my age would appreciate it as much as i did. But for me, the story is like... wow. (hands down to Sir Jonathan Larson.)

.ICEBAG 6.

Sa pag-graduate ko, ako ang gagawa ng plano para sa mga tulay. Ang haba, ang tatag, ang lugar - lahat ng iyan, ako ang magpapasya. Pero di ko kayang pagpasyahan ang haba ng panahong magugustuhan mo siya, ang tatag ng inyong pag-iibigan at ang lugar na sakop niya sa iyong puso. Madaling magplano sa paggawa ng tulay pagka-graduate ko. Mas mahirap ang maging tulay.

* * *
Sabi mo nagkakilala tayo sa maling panahon. Gusto mo itama muna ang lahat bago tayo magmahalan. Meron bang tamang panahon para magmahal ng totoo?

* * *
Kahit pinupuso ako 'pag umiinom ng kape, kasama mo akong nag-e-espresso. Kahit allergic ako sa bagoong, kahati mo ako sa isang plato ng bagoong rice. Kahit engineering ako, sumasali ako sa cheering ng org mo sa palaCASan. Lahat ginagawa ko para sa yo. Pero hindi ba pwedeng maging patas tayo sa ating relasyon? Hindi ba pwedeng maging balanse ang bigayan? Sana ang pag-ibig parang equation, pare-pareho ang kalalabasang bigayan ng
dalawang panig 'pagkat sa gitna ng relasyon, madiin ang equal sign.

* * *
Bihira na ang bituin sa gabi kapag tag-ulan. Natatakpan ng maitim na ulap ang kinang. Tumingin ka sa mga mata ko, may nag-iisang bituing kumikislap kahit anong itim ng ulap dahil sa ulan. Hindi pumupusyaw, patuloy na nagliliwanag. Ikaw yan, iyong palatandaan.

* * *
Kahapon pinakopya kita sa exam. Kanina, ako ang nagpa-xerox ng readings para sa yo. Ngayon, gusto mong gayahin ang research paper ko. Sana magawa mo ring kopyahin ang kabaitan ko, ipa-xerox ang malasakit ko sayo at gayahin ang pag-ibig ko sa yo.

* * *
Nasaulo mo na ang C++ at Pascual languages. Uno ka nga sa CMSC11 class mo di ba? Pero hanggang ngayon hindi mo pa rin masaulo ang lenggwahe ng puso ko. Nananatili kang ignorante sa mga salita at bulag sa mensaheng pinapaalala nito sa tuwing makikita mo akong nakatingin sa iyo habang kumakain ka sa tindahan sa Physci. Sana meron din akong C++ at Pascal, para kahit papaano, naiintindihan mo rin ako.

* * *
Kaklase kita sa Math11. Bagsak ka, uno ako. Pero di ka nasilaw sa aking uno. Sa puso mo, sana payagan mo akong mag-take two.

* * *
Marami na akong napanalunang tropeo nung high school. Kung hindi ako college scholar, university scholar naman. Pero hindi ako niyayakap ng mga tropeo sa gabi. Hindi ako hinahagkan ng mga certificate kung malungkot ako't may suliranin. Sa iyo ang yakap at halik na di mapapantayan ng anumang certificate o tropeo.

* * *

ICEBAG 6

DL UMALI AUDITORIUM

AUGUST 8, 9, 10 / 7PM

[Hindi po ako ang nag-isip niyan.. natuwa lang ako sa teasers nila.. ehehe.. (nag-plug?!) haha.. nood kau! =) ]

reminiscin'

i read a blog entry from an interesting person talking about his childhood and how life was before. i said to myself: "wow, oo nga noh.." and i got to reminisce about my childhood days as well. i realized how much i miss being a kid. funny as it seems, pero ang mga bata nga naman may pagka-corny. haha. here are some things about me when i several years younger.

* we had this personal box or kit at school where we kept our extra clothes, baby powder, cologne, and everything else.
* i used to be one-of-the-boys..
* all of my neighbors were guys who were a few years older than me. (i used to play basketball with them by the way.:))
* i joined hula-hoop contests in children's parties. and everytime i did, i was the one to get prize. =)
* i was a die hard power rangers fan.
* the cartoon shows that i completely watched every episode were: Ghost fighter and Mojacko.
* i also watched every show in nickelodeon.
* i was good in riding bikes... not anymore. :c
* my mom did my assignments and my teachers had always found out.
* i was always included in school presentations, often part of dance numbers.
* i was ALWAYS late in class when i was in grade5. (my sincere apology to my former adviser.)
* my favorite toy was a kitchen set i got from my preparatory graduation.
* my favorite stuffed animal was an orange dinosaur and a brown monkey. (oops, i mean, a brown bear which looked like a monkey..:))
* i never met (in person) my famous godfather. he's still in the music industry right now.
* i loved ICE CANDIES!
* i collected texts though i never really played with it.
* i collected a lot of stationeries and stickers too.
* i was a teacher's pet. ;p
* whenever we go to McDonald's, i cudn't wait to get the free toy in their Happy Meal.
* i was good in playing ten-twenty. (oh not good, i was one of the best. haha! ;p)
* i didn't get the chance to sing christmas carols in our neighborhood. awww.
* we named our hired ice cream vendor in my 7th bday as kuya "suki". i still wonder what his real name is.
* i had a rubber shoes with red and yellow lights. =)

well, childhood is a stage full of dreams, hope and freedom. time runs really fast and a lot of things had changed. i'm no longer a kid with a melting ice cream in one hand. not anymore a brat who would cry whenever she wants to. not that little fool who wished for everything. i miss being a kid though.. not aware of crappy things in this world.. but just one hopeful girl enjoying life as it is. =)